Monday, May 24, 2010

Hope, Trust, Rest.

"I've been keeping my hopes unbroken." Best line of the song by Switchfoot. 

Sometimes, I get my hopes up so high and then they fall, crashing down again. 

And I strive so hard to be hopeful.

When all God is saying is "Rest in Me. Keep your hopes in ME." Because when we put our hope in God, then it will be unbroken. And we can just Rest. And believe that God isn't going to break our hearts. 

That's all. Off to write another blog that doesn't quite fit into this one:)

Wednesday, May 19, 2010

Ever increasing glory...I'll take some of that!

Okay, I love Psalms cause it's poetic, melodic, prettyful. But I LOOOOVE 2 Corinthians 4:13 cause it's baller truth! Not like the rest of the Bible isn't, but I love these verses...

 "...Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. And we, who with unveiled faces all reflect the Lord's glory, are being transformed into His likeness with EVER INCREASING GLORY..."

Um. Yes please. I want a lot of that ever increasing glory to shine through me. Puh leeease Jesus?!

(Honestly, it's not like we have to beg Him. He'll gladly give it to us.)

I'm chasing after His glory. I'm chasing after being transformed into His likeness. I want my unveiled--no pretense, no shame--face to reflect His glory! I mean, can you imagine what it would be like on earth if all of the Christians allowed their pretenses to fall away and not be afraid to reflect His glory?! Countries would be transformed! Broken families put back together! AIDS HEALED! Cancer, Gone! Wheelchairs useless, because the lame would begin to walk!

See, when people fall into His presence, into His glory, they are transformed...

When people pass by us on the streets, and we're walking with unveiled faces to reflect His glory (Which means His presence is nearby...like. Bam. Right thur), they'll get healed, because of His presence, His ever increasing glory!
I love that phrase. "Ever increasing glory" Never going down. Always overflowing. Mmm hmm. I'll take some of that, please.

"Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is FREEDOM." Isn't that what people are searching for? A way out of their bondage? Well, honey, where the spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. There is a way out of your bondage and it's in the presence of His spirit. Freedom. Ahhh. 


This is me rambling as these thoughts are coming into my head. I'll probably edit this. haha

Thursday, May 13, 2010

To be brutally honest...

There is no underlying "Subject" or "intent" to this. What I write is what I mean. This is probably most likely going to be hard for me to write and I wouldn't write it to get to another point.

I am sick of girls who play games. Play games with guys' hearts.  Play games and act innocent. I am sick of girls who want every guy to like them, and lead them on, and then break their hearts, in search of the "perfect guy".

Some of us...maybe me...do it and don't know it. Some of us try to look for the perfect guy and end up handling it badly when we break the unperfect guys heart. Because all we want is prince charming.

Newsflash honey.

There is no Mr. Perfect.

There is no Prince Charming

You can bypass one of the people that was meant for you...

and you'll still be happy with another.

It happens.

Some people might say this is a cynical post.

Honestly?

I'm just sick of seeing guys being led on by girls gone bad acting innocent.

by girls who pretend to be SOOOO in love with Jesus

But really only care about themselves and their happiness.

I honestly was and maybe still am (Working on it) the one that leads guys on and doesn't know it.

CALL ME OUT ON IT.

Please. If you're my friend, call me out on it. If you're my enemy, call me out on it.

This blog had two purposes. To say that no guy is perfect. There are awesome guys out there, but not one of them will be perfect. They will still have their flaws.

And to say that if you're a girl after God's own heart, be careful. I understand that we can be nice and people will read into it. But be careful. don't let a guys heart get broken because you want every guy to like you. Please. I say this on behalf of my very best guy friends and actually on behalf of every guy out there, whether they're players or not.

Guys, I ask the same of you. Be careful with our hearts. They get involved way easier than yours.

Thank you:)

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

Healing of the heart.

It is incredible how much healing can come from music. I was writing a short story for my class and God just took it another way...it went from being about bitterness and justice to forgiveness and mercy and hope. Then "reflections" by Coty Sloan came on and I just rested...rested in His presence. 

I started writing out a prophetic word. It seriously just flowed. It was awesome. With it came healing of my heart. There was so much CRAP in there. And this music just completely soothed...


Anyway. Good stuff. Go check Coty Sloan out on myspace...such great music.

Thursday, May 06, 2010

A friend of mine posted something and it got me thinking...


"A relationship with the perfect woman can't compare to my relationship with God."


(That may be paraphrased, ha.)


So true. When we're in a relationship, we go on gung ho and "ooo so in love blah blah blah BLAH". 


My relationship with God should be uncomparable to any love we've ever known. Has it been? Sure. Do I know this? Yeah. Do I live it?


Oooo catch there. See I try to live it, and then I just get caught up in...life. I try to pay attention to God and then a guy or something comes along and distracts me. 


I have NO idea where I'm going with this. Just a thought. Thanks, friend, for posting that!:)

Saturday, May 01, 2010

Regrets and Hopes

I wish just once I had gone to prom.

I wish just once I could have given up money
In order to hang with my friends
That I probably will rarely see soon

I wish just once
That I had stopped being so closeminded
and seen the handwriting on the wall
Instead of what I wanted to see


I wish just once I could have stopped judging
and started loving


I wish just once
That I could have stopped my insecurities
And left that person a note that said
"God loves you"
not caring if it sounded cheesy or was "Religious"
But it was the truth
Before they died. 

I wish just once
That I could have stayed better friends
with that one person
Who brought me out of my shell


I wish just once
That I could have slowed down
And enjoyed my life
In every season


I hope in the future
That I have the courage
and bravery
To love and to allow myself to be loved.


I hope in the future 
I'll have the guts to say
"Hey. I don't like you. Back off"



I hope in the future 
not too soon off
I can finally accept that I did the best I could
And to let go of my regrets


I hope in the future
That I can finally
Let go of my burden
And cry my eyes out
And allow my heart to be healed 
of the crap I've let inside


I hope someday
in the future
I can look my best friends in the eyes
and say
"I love you
but quit what you're doing
because it's ruining your life"


I hope someday in the future
I can look my husband in the eyes
and see
And feel
True love
The icky, mushy, kind
that still has problems
But we work over it.


I hope someday in the future
I can teach my generation
to love
How I learned to love
From my parents
from my siblings
from my teachers
From my Jesus. 


I have a lot of regrets, some serious, some not.
But I have bigger hopes. I will lift my eyes to the Maker of the mountains I can't climb. I feel hope. These raging seas can't drown me. I won't let them drown me. And while I feel like I might drown in my tears tonight, for whatever reason I cannot fathom, tomorrow will be a new day


Bright
And sunny
and brimming over with hope
And faith.